不喜欢这种感觉。。。

真的说不出心里的那一种痛。。我真的很累了。。。

您，知道我心里有多在乎吗？？几乎不能呼吸了。。想你想到快疯了。。在无知之下，你终于给我一个回复，真的好高兴！！ ^^

我真的希望，这些都不是我单想的哦。。你会在乎吗？？亲爱的。。=)

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31/05/2010

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你身边的朋友，哪几个是真心对待你的？？？？

心里想了很久，真的很不能接受此时此刻的这种感觉，我感觉到真的好幸苦，不希望自己的角色是用来扮演的，为什么？？难道真心对待真的很难吗？？彼此之中一定要有“骗”吗？？其实，我真的很失望，不懂如何形容，心真的很灰。。是我个人的问题，还是我不值得你们相信？？人生里一次的错误，真的要让我失去所有吗？那我活着的意义又是什么？？我不能想象自己活着，但身边却没有朋友，偶尔想出去逛逛街，喝喝茶，谈谈天，都没有，一辈子呆在家里，面对镜子跟自己讲话，像样吗？？真辛苦！！！到底该怎么办？？？

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29/05/2010

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孤单的日子好难受！！

心真的好难受。。到底日子应该怎样过？？到底我哪里出了问题？？为什么？？我想很清楚地问问我自己，自己已经把过去忘了吗？？还是自己还活在过去里呢？？这句话已经纠缠了我多年的时间。。或许我真的应该醒来了，对吗？？感觉自己真的很笨！为什么人家能够这么幸福？而我要自己承受痛苦？？到底是怎样，我也应该怎样！！恨我自己为什么这么多情绪！！为何不选择心平气和的看待一件事情。。感觉自己在骗自己，很累，真的很累。。到最后，我承受的是。。。孤单。。

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28/05/2010

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今天，心情有点弱。。。

今天一早起身时，第一个的就先想到你了。。我在想，为什么自己突然这么在乎。。而你，今天没有任何一点消息。。我心里只能想，也同时在猜测，今天的你，又怎样过了？？当然，你也不会知道的。。这件事情，突然变成了我人生突然想再开始爱的心情。。为什么，感觉好像给了我点希望，然后又毫无消息了呢？？你到底在想些什么？？为何那么难猜测！！我恨我自己，为什么这么笨，这么没胆子。。如果一切能够再来。。我一定会让你知道，自己爱上你了。。。

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26/05/2010

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Finally ~ My Blogs Opened !! Hurayy.. ^^

In fact, i want to have my own blogs since long time .. The problem is i don't know how to edit my blogs background.. Thanks for my tuition friend Ying Ying teach me the step from beginning.. Hehehe.. TQ.. MuacksSs..

Now finally , i get it !! Happy Happy Happy !! I can express all my mood in here..

Huhh.. LCCI exam just only past.. Now , my life still need to continue .. The same in daily , wake up early in the morning, then go work!! Stress.. I need to learn many thing from there.. Sometime, really feels lazy.. Not much colleague in the office.. Just every time hear from the management , we will welcome the "New Colleague" .. Xienz !! I think they even didn't have time to view the CV emails by others applicant. !! Arghs!!

Just wonder am i still need to continue my LCCI level 2??? Huh.. But i know i really cant, how come i need to pushing myself to move to level 2 even my result for LCCI level 1 still haven't get???

Today is Sunday!! Suppose to have many friend going out with me?? Haiz..!! But.. i still alone in home facing my PC and type @#$%^& in blogger!! Omg!! Somebody help me out from this life please!! I need you very much!! Just hoping you will come out to me in the right timing :p

One thing make me very happy is!! I've changed my new hair style!! Although the result not really different than before!! But seems like the image had let me looks like 5 year ago!! Oh yes!! ^^

Hehe.. im gonna stop now, and continue with my Facebook games!! Keke.. Buby my blogs.. I will come back when i need you.. Xixi.. =)

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23/05/2010

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